Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Meta-Stomachache

my mild depressions are getting smarter, like mutant bacterial strains that are super-resistant to all kinds of medicine/logic. they trick me into thinking i'm passably functional emotionally, only to soon discover they just switched operating centers, WHAM! yesterday i had a semi-breakdown about SANDWICH TOPPINGS. my entire day was paralyzed by having made a few bad choices between two loaves of bread. the sun in the world seemed to rise and fall (mostly fall) upon my inability to make a good bite to eat. towards the end of the day, i was so disheartened by my future meal prospects, i couldn't even string words into a sentence. it's one thing to have an existential crisis in the head but once the tumtum is involved, aparna gets served, and quickly.


rock bottom
photo courtesy of Flickr and Siobhan Curran

2 comments:

Dupa Jasia said...

On account of the intimate relation of dream fear to neurotic fear, discussion of the former obliges me to refer to the zantac latter.. They had now reached a vigorous middle age; they were each married, and vicodin each had a house in the country in which he resided for a part of the year.. In pronouncing these words he drew a sharp knife across the guide-rope by which I was suspended, and as we then happened to be precisely over my own diazepam house (which, during my peregrinations, had been handsomely rebuilt), it so occurred that I tumbled headlong down the ample chimney and alit upon the dining-room hearth.. But we have not come one step nearer a solution of the riddle: Why lodine can the unconscious furnish the motive power for the wish-fulfillment only during sleep? The answer to this question must throw light on the psychic nature of wishes; and it will be given with the aid of the diagram of the psychic apparatus.. All other processes cialis in the system, even those in the foreconscious, are devoid of any psychic quality, and are therefore not objects of consciousness inasmuch as they do not furnish pleasure or pain for perception...

Aparna said...

this is the best comment i've ever gotten! i like the subtle drug references.